Thursday, March 4, 2010

It's Time!

Last night, a new chapter was opened in our lives. Child #1--who is a junior in high school-- made his first appointment to visit a college! Mercy! I am getting old! Actually, Hubby is!! Today is his birthday!! Whoohoo!!

We will be visiting Appalachian State in a few weeks during our Spring Break. It's a lovely place, but...there is too much snow and icy roads, too many miles from Mama, and out of state! So, I've already decided that it's not the place for him to go for 4 years or more. There are several other universities much closer to home that offer the major he is interested in. I, personally, think that is the way to go.

But, this is not about me. This is not about my major or my goals in life. I am having to sit back and let go. Y'all, this is a strange place for Mama to be. I've been helping him with decisions for 17 years. And, now, I have to start letting go. I am in a very different season of my life.

There are so many stories in the Bible that reflect where I am. Letting go of my wants and letting God be in control. I struggled with this in my quiet time with the Lord this morning. But God is so faithful to show me His Word and to give me His peace. I have some pondering to do today my friends.

"Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul." Psalm 143:8

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:11-13

Sweet Blessings!


Empty Nest Full Life said...

I know exactly how you feel and where you are. I have done it twice. Start carrying those tissues with you all the time because the tears will come when you least expect it. When friends told me that, I thought it was ridiculous, and then I saw how true it was. You do a lot of reflecting, remembering and wanting to hold on while needing to let go. Sometimes when they are home to visit now, I do the same thing and get very teary after they leave. I will be praying for you since I know this will be hard. Looking forward to hearing what that wonderful boy decides. Blessings, Jackie

Andrea said...

Getting old happens to the best of us...hahaha.

Empty Nest Full Life said...

Forgot to say Happy Birthday to that sweet husband of yours. Jackie

Yolanda said...

I'm memorizing Jeremiah 29:11-12 this month, as in January I memorized verses 13-14a. Look at 14a...yee-haw.


Beth E. said...

I understand the gamut of emotions you are feeling. We have two sons in college. Our youngest is in his freshman year.

Letting go is not an easy task, but you'll do just fine! :-)

Kay @ Off the Beaten Path said...

I'm there right now with my first in his first year of college. Enjoy the ride Susan. It is a little scary, but if you cling to God's trustworthy hand and let go of your son's a little bit more each step of the way, it will go well and you will even find great joy in the process. You might want to check out my post today for a glimpse into the future! You're going to do just great with all this. You'll see.

3 Blessings said...

Oh I cannot imagine what your mommy heart is going through. I always tease my son that I cannot go to college with him...since he is often very dependent on me making everything happen for him :) I will be praying for you and for his decisions in the upcoming year.

Gotta Run..Gotta Ride said...

wish I could say something to make this new season easier for you. I still struggle and MISS Kenny so much. It really goes by with a blink of an eye... their childhoos that is.

Excited but sad all in the same emotion.

AnooCre8ion said...

Susan this is just where I'm at now with my daughter. She is in her junior year and when we talk about colleges it is very hard for me. I don't know how I'll do it but I guess I have to to accept that it's about her choices and her goals etc.
Not looking forward to this at all.

Happy birthday to your husband.


Susan Panzica - EternityCafe said...

I can so identify!! My youngest is a freshman and my oldest a junior, both living away at collge. Thankfully, they're not too far and we get to see them.
Sure makes life interesting!
With cell phones & texting, they're never too far!
And my hubby's birthday was Tuesday. Happy Birthday to yours!

Marci @ All Things Wonderful said...

Happy Birthday to your handsome son! Hang in there, Mama. I say that so bravely...but, my heart broke a little...when B started preschool. God is good and will protect him...and you can go and visit. XOXO

Lelia Chealey said...

Oh Susan, I am not looking forward to this time with Aaron. He is only a sophomore, so I have some time, but goodness gracious spare me all the tugging at my heart!!
I can't wait to hear how this season in your lives draws you even closer to God. Keep trusting Him my sweet friend. And happy belated b-day to your man!
And your son...very handsome! ;)
love you much!

Rachel Olsen said...

If he decides to visit UNCW, be sure and holler so I can maybe meet you while you're here.

Letting go as a mom is so hard, isn't it?

Hugs ~ Rachel

elaine @ peace for the journey said...

I fully understand, but even saying "so" doesn't alleviate all the anxieties that come with your personal situation. Pray that God will make a choice clearly obvious for all of you. He's done so for us with our two... clearly OBVIOUS. He will do the same for you.


Marilyn in Mississippi said...

It's hard when your first-born starts being an adult! I had taught all three of our kids at home so when they grew up and started leaving home it was really tramatic for Mama! But it's so awesome to see them making decisions on their own. Falling down. Getting back up. Almost like when they're learning to walk except we are not there physically to pick them up. We have to do it through prayer mostly. My youngest will be THIRTY next week! Now do you not feel younger??? ha ha

God bless you Susan! Mississippi

Jennifer @ Getting Down With Jesus said...

What a lovely verse from Psalm 143. Thank you so much for sharing that!

On Purpose said...

Praising God for your REAL beautiful heart...the Jesus in you is so amazing...thank you for walking these steps for mommas like me...who need and desire to have role models who follow hard after there Jesus in every aspect of their boys are a ways behind...but I do know it will come very quickly...thank you for leading the way!

elaine @ peace for the journey said...

Got your message; so very excited about it all! Let's connect soon with a date, etc. Busy day; swamped with details over here, as I know you must be.

Just loved hearing your voice on the answering machine today.


Mary Singer Wick said...

Sweet Susan!

Your son is a beautiful soul. I know you are filled with so many emotions during this season of transition. I'll be praying for all of you!

So good to have you back on-line. Thank you for the comment on my blog regarding my book (bless you for passing it along to comfort another woman!), and witnessing to my friend with cancer. She passed away last week. I just wrote about it tonight if you view my latest post.

Have a great day. Miss you former P31 conference roomie!


Mary Singer Wick

Joyful said...

Hey sweet friend...I'm with you on this post! Chris heads off to University this year and it's going to be quite the change, but a needed letting go. So thankful He remains in God's Hands. No better place to be.

PS. Hoping the hair situation is OK now :)