Pretend that you are a great chef--you love to bake, and cakes are your favorite. You enjoy the time spent in the kitchen and the aroma when that lovely cakes comes out from the oven. Ahhh! You don't mind that the prep time is long, the ingredients a little pricey. It's worth the outcome.
Suddenly, things happen in your life. Priorities change. The extra time you used to have is spent on the computer learning how to apply difficult software to something that should be simple. Hours fly by on the clock, but you've made baby steps toward the goal. You're getting calls to substitute--which is great since child #1 will be looking at colleges soon, and child #2 will get braces by the end of the summer. You're also making day trips to pack up your parents' house which you hope to have on the market by late spring. And, then, you have your regular days of carpool and laundry and groceries and meetings.
Now, instead of having time to bake those delicious cakes, you only have a few minutes. You do have time to open a box of cake mix and throw together cupcakes! This, my friends, is where I am in my running life. I have been reduced to a cupcake. Smile if you want, but the stress over reducing my miles and races has just broken my heart. For over 10 years, I've done the "big" races. Lots of fun and lots of training miles. That equates to lots of time on the road and trails. Suddenly, I am scheduling photo shoots during the time slots where I used to run and run and run. Photo shoots are fun too--they bring me so much joy! God has opened a door for me and plan on holding His hand in this adventure to see it through.
My running girlfriends have planned a trip to Ohio in May to run the Flying Pig Marathon. I have wanted to run this one for a while--just the name is too cute! And the main color they use is PINK! I want to do the entire 26.2 miles--I've done it before. But, my training time has been reduced to a cupcake. I don't have the time that it takes to properly train for the race. I DO have the time to train for the half marathon (aka the cupcake). But you know what stands in my way?
PRIDE and SELFISHNESS.....
There, I've said it! I said it to Hubby on Saturday through tears. I'm past the crying part now. I'm still in the praying part. I know that God hates pride. The selfishness goes right along beside that ugly "P" word. Listen to this scripture from Daniel 4:37--" And those who walk ( or run!!) in pride he is able to humble." It's sifting time sisters! And it ain't pretty! I am taking this to the Lord each day. I know that in His timing and His way, I will be able to rise to the occasion of running a cupcake and being excited and enthusiastic and joyful. He has pulled me out of that type of pit before. And He will do it again if only I truly repent of that ugly "P" word.
So, there you have it. Runner Mom is going to go all the way to Ohio--an 8 hour trip. I need the time with my chickadees to laugh, eat, shop, and run...and of course, talk! I am going all that way and only running half the distance that I normally run. But, I will get through this, and I pray that I will bring Him glory! That is worth all the cupcakes in the world!