On Friday, as I was getting ready to substitute, I suddenly realized that something wasn't quite right. Something in my tummy was going on! Hours later, never making it to work and back in the bed, I finally gave up on trying to be strong and fight this virus which obviously had a grip on me! So, I SLEPT! In the middle of the day! Not even sleep from exercise induced exhaustion...just chills from a fever that were part of the goody bag of a virus that's been going around. When I finally woke up, I had my quiet time. I've been reading from Oswald Chamber's book, My Utmost for His Highest. The devotional was discussing how to be devoted to hearing God. (If you have the book, read February 13.) It was absolutely wonderful. I looked up devotion in Webster's --I had PLENTY of time y'all! It said that devotion is defined as 1) religious fervor: Piety-an act of prayer or supplication. Also, 2) love or affection. I started thinking in my befuddled state of mind. Do I go to the Lord each day with religious fervor? Do I consistently show Him love and affection?
Chambers went on to say that what hinders him from hearing God is his attention to other things! Imagine that! They are good things...family, friends, church, work, or your own convictions. He says, " It's not that I don't want to hear God, but I am not devoted to the right areas of my life. The attitude of a child of God should be that spoken by Samuel in 1 Samuel 3:10. 'Speak, for your servant hears.' ."
If I haven't developed and nurtured this devotion of hearing, I can only hear God's voice at certain times. Have I become deaf to my Lord and Savior who died and gave His life for me? Am I too busy focusing on the important things of the world so that I miss the small whisper of God?
Because I felt so yucky, I didn't leave the house for two days. I had the time to focus on God and His Word. I just don't like having to be sick to make me slow down and do this. This morning, during my QT, I was convicted again!!! In Jesus Calling, by Sarah Young, the devotional for Feb. 16 reads that I should thank Him for conditions that require me to be still! Do not spoil these times by wishing them away, waiting impatiently to be active again. Some of the greatest works of His kingdom have been done from sick beds...although you feel cut off from the activity of the world, your quiet trust makes a powerful statement in spiritual realms. God's strength and power show themselves most effective in weakness. (Isaiah 30:15, 2 Cor. 12:9)
Ok! I've got it! Granted it took a virus t slow me down to see how He desires me to be devoted to hearing Him and to thank Him for it! I'm not a dumb bunny, I've got it! I won't forget this lesson from above! No one likes being sick and having to stop their regular routine. Mine actually went a tad further. During the night on Friday, my bottom lip began to swell. By Saturday morning, it had quadrupled in size! It looked like Angelina Jolie's lip! But only the bottom lip! Oh, it hurt and ached! It was the weirdest thing ever! Because of my lovely protruding lip, I chose to stay at home and not go to child #2's church basketball game! Vanity!! Also, I still felt blah! But the lip! It's funny now, and I wish that I had taken a picture! I'm sure that it was a by-product of the virus, but totally weird!
A virus, a big lip, and Valentine's Day '09 will be forever etched into my heart as a reminder to be devoted to hearing my God. He always hears me; I need to be devoted to hearing Him.